I am grateful to (in chronological order):
- the work of Georges Devereux - for transcending boundaries across cultures [de],
- Vita Brevis: A Letter to St Augustine by Jostein Gaarder - for transcending boundaries across time,
- Prof. Henry Zvi Lothane - for persistently encouraging me to create,
- the work of John Bradshaw - for fearlessly saying what matters, in a way anyone can understand,
- the work of Les Brown - for telling me - and so many others - Yes, I can!,
- Dr Charlotte Baltrusch - for generously sharing her immense experience, skill and being a supervisor, mentor and friend,
- last not least - the hundreds of individuals who have entrusted their oftentimes innermost stories, thoughts and emotions.
I started Medical School in fall 2001 as the most motivated student you probably can imagine. Inevitably, I was disencouraged by so many situations of lacking empathy and respect for patients that I could not see how this curriculum could ever make a good doctor out of me. My passion to care was stronger than my fear of So I took responsibility for my own education and therefore had to overcome many obstacles. My first escape was becoming Medical Ethics Director 2005/2006 of EMSA, where I was privileged to make presentations during high-level conferences in many European countries. It also showed my how little is actually being achieved and how many resources are wasted on "big stages".
I wanted to do what I always knew I was best at: to listen to and assist human beings in emotional pain. So in 2007 I engaged in diverse projects, ranging from an initiative for raising awareness for global health care challenges, a visiting service for people living in a senior citizens' home, and others.
At this time I had no idea how I could ever make a living from doing this. Therefore, during 2008-2011 I gave in to the need to earn a living - and professionalized my love for creativity, music and dance. This make me run and manage a dance company and a music production & management firm. I cherish a lot what I could experience and learn during this period and believe that it became a cornerstone to making today's projects more appealing. But I had left my deepest talent idle - to be inevitably rediscovered.
The Road Not Taken
When you leave what is widely considered a well worn path, life can become lonely, even fearful and the encouragement of my father was a newly discovered rock in unchartered waters. So in 2011 I co-founded, together with Dr Baltrusch, Healing Souls International, a nonprofit which aims at improving the access to psychotrauma-therapy for populations in distress. My personal brain-child is Emotion Coaching, my second nonprofit that aims at empowering helpers to be as effective as they can through methods of emotional stabilization.
Today, when I connect the dots, I see that all that I have been through was and is a necessary part of me. My path makes me the caregiver I am today. And that is - and I say this not for the applause, but for the simple truth of it - something unique.